Loose threads
Weaving fantasy and disappointment. Workers and families share their struggles for acknowledgement. | ||
1. Search eternal
A dry pre-Maghrib hour and the emotional charge from Halima “Hum log insaann e hi hain?” “Are we not human?” lands exactly where intended: the territory of the unanswerable. Halima and Qurban Ali have been married for decades, with many of those years spent in a single room at the end of a narrow alley in one of the Mirpur camps for “stranded Pakistanis.” In pre-Partition India, Qurban Ali’s family lived in Kamarhati, West Bengal, “around an hour from Kolkata, from Raja Bazar,” adds Halima with relish for the details. Qurban Ali worked at a cotton mill; his first wife was from Kolkata. Now, 87 or 88, some of his senses have weakened. He has lost most of his eyesight; his hearing has diminished considerably. Halima, his second wife, who characterizes marriage generally as “jhelke raho” “hanging on”. (which she intends as dry wit, not bitterness), fills in Qurban Ali’s long pauses. And it is mostly through her that his, her, and their stories are communicated.
Born in East Pakistan, Halima’s mother was Bengali and her father Bihari from Muzaffarpur. Both were from India; both arrived here post-Partition. Halima remembers her mother had a hard time learning Urdu, though over time, she adapted. Halima learned Urdu from her father as Urdu was spoken at home, and she is just as adept at spoken Bangla, though she can’t read or write in the latter. At 71, her pluck intact, Halima speaks of several trips to India, the last of which was in 2004 before border regimes tightened. A return trip arranged through a dalal had cost only 1400 taka. On that last visit, a kind of
“girls’ trip” – with her brother’s mother-in-law – they went around the heady destinations of Kolkata, Eden Garden, Victoria Memorial, New Market; the market, however, was mostly a miss because it was a Sunday. A customary trip to Kamarhati had also been made, but Muzaffarpur was both too far and too empty with her father gone; now she was just an outsider, known to no one there.
As the hour of Maghrib approaches and sunlight and verve dissolve into sadness – unsupported and uncared for by their children and by the imposition of outsider status in her place of birth, – Halima picks out a rehel, one of a handful of cherished generational mementos. Her meager income from embroidery commissions is their only income. Few tokens of their life together survive, and there are barely documents of their conjugal life, says Halima, as they had always avoided being photographed. One exception, IDs they acquired in 2008. Qurban Ali muses: “In the past, it wasn’t as important but these days everything requires an ID. We can’t even get a proper burial, a place at the cemetery without one.” Marooned in these shores, Qurban Ali passed away on December 18, 2019, only weeks after this meeting.
2.Tenuous fabrics